Christmas Blankets...

This Christmas I wanted to do something special.  Last year I was so wrapped up in grief I just wanted to stay in bed and forget it was Christmas.  But I pushed myself to enjoy it with my kids...and I did for the most part.

This year it's like the child-like Christmas feelings are back.  I have been thinking a lot about those who lose loved ones around Christmas...especially babies.

So we decided we would honor Declan by taking a special blanket-bag to the hospital.  I will only be able to afford one this year...but we wanted to make this one have extra things that I could not have put into another bag.

My kids are actually excited to take it on Christmas Eve.  I want to make this a holiday tradition...to remember Declan and to never forget that somewhere there is someone who is just starting their journey without their baby.

I was very blessed to have so many in my life that have lost babies or children.  Not everyone has that and many times they are the only one.  I wish I could take bags to every single one of them and wrap my arms around them telling them I am so sorry...but since that isn't possible I will have to settle for one bag and a distant hug through the soft blanket.

I love this season...it typically brings out the best in people.  I love the service that surrounds the holiday.  People rising above themselves and reaching out to others.  Even if we can't do that all year, which I wish we could, at least for one month there are so many that are a little more tenderhearted, giving, and loving toward others.

I know there are many who all year round, serve and give unceasingly...how I wish I could place myself in that group.  I too often need a nudge to get going.

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season!  I hope it is filled with family, friends, and hope.

Thank you for all your support over this difficult year!  You'll never really know how it has touched my life and my family's.