4 days...

In 4 days my Declan would be 9 months.  The thought is almost hard for me to understand.  I am getting close to a year.  How did that happen?  How can time seem so fast and so slow all wrapped up at the same time?  I feel like it has been 9 years, not 9 months.  But I can recall the events of Declan's birth and death like they happen, but moments ago.

I just printed out my cards to place with the blankets.  They are Memorial cards to Declan and they also explain why I chose to donate blankets to the hospital.  My hope is that they are helpful.  I want to be helpful.

I have a friend that put Angel babies birthdays on her blog.  I really like that idea.  I think it is important to always feel that your little one is remembered.  My grandma told me that when she had lost her two year old son, her mother-in-law told her to never stop talking about him.  My great grandma had lost a son in WWII and knew the pain that losing a child meant.  So my grandma shared that advice to me.  Never stop talking about Declan.  He is apart of my family.  I hope that people aren't uncomfortable about having me speak of him, but I'm not going to stop.  He is my baby and just like any living child you want them apart of you life always.  Since we don't get to enjoy them the same way as living children...they are implanted in our hearts and minds.  Speaking of them is the only way to honor them and let others know...Declan was once here and he is always loved.